How is unforgiveness affecting your life?

I heard that question in a breathing ceremony in which I was participating.  The thing was, I thought I had forgiven.  I have been doing forgiveness work around a particular issue for years.  I have written and burned letters, I have done meditations, I have done radical forgiveness worksheets, Ho’oponopono, you name it, I have done it.  

And then, I hear this question and up pops the issue.

Again...  

This time, though, it was different.  I wasn’t triggered by the thought of the event and the person in question.  What happened next sounds a bit…out there.

I felt the issue, event, lesson, whatever you want to call it, leave my body.  I realized, as it was happening, that I was releasing it at a cellular level.  I could feel it.  To best describe the feeling requires a bit of imagination.  It felt like the bubbles that you see in champagne or seltzer water.  It felt like that coming out of my body.  It was crazy.  It was phenomenal.  It was…amazing!  

The next thing that happened is that the person in question “came to me” and asked for forgiveness.  I could feel his presence.  I could hear his voice.

Sound out there? 

Try being in it!  And yet, there he was, or at least the thought of him, his energy and his voice.  I’m getting chills just thinking about it.  Not the creepy, I’m scared chills.  The, “that’s cool and it rocked!” kind of chills.

I have never been afraid of things I don’t understand.  In fact, I find them intriguing.  (I am a physicist, after all.)  So, the fact(?) that this person showed up at my breath session simply made me curious about why.  Why do I find myself, after years of doing forgiveness work, having to forgive him ONE MORE TIME?

Because trauma is like that.  

It impacts our bodies and our minds in a myriad of ways.  We don’t always know where we lock away pieces of that trauma until it shows up.  It can show up through consciously choosing to release trauma in energy work.  Or, it can show up when we least expect it in an argument with someone we love.

Our choice.

After having it show up in my life and impact me and my loved ones in unhealthy ways way too many times, I made the decision to actively work towards releasing it, energetically. 

Are you ready to take back your life?  

Are you ready to release those things; memories, experiences and thoughts, that no longer serve you?

Because the world needs you to show up as your best version of yourself!  And the road back is through forgiveness. Of yourself.  Of others.